My Velvety Heaven
By Eric Karlan | Clinically, pediatrician and psychoanalyst Donald Winnicott’s theory on transitional objects does not apply to me. After all, his analysis discusses a young child’s transition between dependence on, and independence from, the mother. Winnicott’s general idea, however, can still apply to an 18-year-old transitioning from home to college. In both cases the human must adjust to the reality that it is his or her own actions that yield personal contentment. According to Winnicott, a transitional object often aids this journey toward independence. It becomes a source of comfort, symbolic of the person’s ability to fulfill one’s own needs. Young children cling to items such as teddy bears and blankets. I resort to a green couch.
Generally, parents provide their young child with the eventual transitional object. I found the Green Couch all by myself. Easy to overlook, yet not hard to find, it shimmers in the sunlight that bathes the living-room alcove in Penn’s Kelly Writers House. In stark contrast to the sleek, new brown leather couch across the room, the Green Couch looks like it fell off a Salvation Army truck. Its worn, velvety cloth is a deep olive hue; its shading alters with the slightest pressure. Though speckled with ink and drink stains, the six cotton-filled cushions conform to my body just rightnot too forgiving, but not too resistant.
The Green Couch makes me wonder why I would ever need an entire house of rooms.
It is an office many executives would envy. I have a beautiful view of the living room and fireplace while I study, conduct interviews for articles, and write (using my lap as a desk).
It is a living room for personal and social purposes. While reading and instant messaging, I listen to my iPod. I entertain friends and converse with other writers; sometimes we gather to watch baseball on my laptop.
It is a dining room where I eat luncha buffalo-chicken sandwich and raspberry smoothie from the Subway counter in Class of 1920 Commons, just across Locust Walk from Writers House.
It is a bedroom where I can kick off my shoes, lie down, and take a catnap.
The only reason to get off this velvety heaven is to go to the bathroom.
The Green Couch is perfect, its comfort only exceeded by its comforting. Why be anywhere else? Surrounded by the Writers House family, I feel at home. The bustling college campus just outside the windows simply disappears, and a blissful serenity takes over.
People wondered what was wrong with the plethora of couches in my dormitory’s study lounges. They wondered why I insisted on journeying across campus to Writers House every day. They argued that a nine-minute walk was quite a trek simply to sit on a couch. I have never understood their point of view.
If catastrophe struck and all forms of communication became dysfunctional, I can rest easy knowing the world would still know where to find me. On a given day, I log more hours on the Green Couch than in my actual room. In fact, several Writers House staff members believed I was on the payroll; this rumor was not dispelled for months. Now, when prospective students tour the Writers House, I am introduced as “the permanent fixture on the Green Couch.” Some have proposed that I should donate a new couch when I graduate and take the old one with me.
As my first year at Penn drew to a close last May, the impending summer hiatus posed a devastating problem: no Green Couch for four months. But I was saved from what I anticipated being an eternal summer separation when higher powers intervened and delivered another green couch to my home just days before my return. Actually, the furniture store delivered it. And the higher powerthat was my family. While redecorating the home library, they purchased a green couch to ease my pain. Of course, my family’s green couch is not the Green Couch. It is darkermore of a dusty army green than olivewith tougher cushions, and microfiber upholstery. Napping on it would be an achy experience, and my mother prefers I eat in the kitchen.
Nevertheless, my family’s effort succeeded. They understood that the Green Couch epitomized the home I had created to supplant the home of my childhood. Yet, my family’s happiness in my finding the Couch superseded their sadness over my departure for college. After all, a mother does not become jealous of a child’s teddy bear. She experiences a sentiment of satisfaction watching her child journey down the road toward independence.
By trying their best to replicate the very object that made my adjustment to college seamless, my family reinforced a rare constant at this stage in my life. Transience defines the college experience. Physically, it means uprooting your material life every several months. Mentally, it means being suspended between adolescence and adulthood. In the midst of this inevitably fleeting lifestyle, a green couch transcends furniture. It is my permanent home base, no matter where home is. I will always feel a connection with any green couchlike they are all mine. They will always conjure the Green Couch’s feeling of comfort and satisfaction. No matter what, there will always be a green couch in my homein my life.
Eric Karlan is a College sophomore from Weston, Connecticut. He can be reached on the Green Couch at Kelly Writers House.
|©2007 The Pennsylvania Gazette
Last modified 04/28/07